It's over :)

And I'm crying 'cos an important part of me is gone. And I'm laughing like nobody's business 'cos I'm glad it's all over now. I'm crying 'cos loneliness has found me. I'm laughing because I can finally be at ease that she no longer loves me, I no longer have the right to bother. I don't know why the fuck am I crying, really. The pain keep coming back whenever I start laughing, or even smile. I keep telling everyone I'm fucking fine. But well, I really am. I'm glad we both have decided to end it here & then. Things would be better for her. Me? I don't know. I hope it'd be though.

Well, life goes on..

I try to smile so the hurt won't show, tell everybody I was glad to see you go. But the tears just won't go away. Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay. I know that I ought to find someone new, but all I find is myself always thinking of you.

For the past six months, at my darkest hour, you were there. But now, just when I turn around, & when I needed you most, I don't see you nor your shadow. It hurts whenever I think of you, the past, how we used to be. But I'm glad we were once a pair. I don't blame you for what had happened, I guess I bought it upon myself. I'm a better person now, thanks to you. Your step into my life was a lesson, a lesson to learn. I'm glad you came & now it's time God take you away & put you into someone else's life to make them learn. I'm glad God took you away, so you won't have to suffer with you in stress, in pain. I didn't know how much pain I've bought you, but I hope it does not hurt as much as I do now.

Now in life, I wish you luck, I wish you love, I wish you great care.
You know that my doors are always open, still the loving pair of arms for you.
My love for you has never died, it is still growing.
I love you, Xav.

I'm rushing so I'm cutting down on whatever I wanna say. Even the little para to her, fuck man. I think I'll continue another time. Haha. Nique accompanied me throughout the night. Pert called later on when I was about to sleep. Managed to sleep only @ 3am. Morning was great, couldn't get up. English, maths & Chi was aye-okay. Art was great, I'm seeing my product. :D Haha. Happy! After school, went OLN with the rest. Bought pens & went to Compass. I was missing my mom. Sigh. Had lunch. Managed to squeeze a little. Walked around, here & all. I hate my school shoes. Puked everything out after I got home, fuck damn disgusting. My stomach is hurting like fuck. I'm gonna do my English corrections. I'm llooking for Art stuff now. I'm doing sunrise/ sunset for my background! :D Thanks to Sassy's picture & Jaclyn's reason. Haha. So cute.

There's class tmr & I'm damn excited. Meeting Jasmine & Liyanna to go for class together. I can't contact Liyanna though. Hm..

So many comments, make me hao happy.
I'll go reply, print my stuff, do my English & call Val. [:

Shuhui; Hello girll. I'm llooking around for your url. Haha. Wanted to talk to you & all. Thanks a lot hons, I hope you're healing already. Take care allright. I hope you'd get to read this. :)
Caroline; Perhaps she used to, now no longer. But she's willing to try. Thankyou rolrol darling. [: You know I love youuuuuuu. (:
Nessa; I love you honeydear. Thanks for commenting. I'll be just fine soon yeh. Hugs. I miss you, gotta catch up soon.!
Nique; You called me & said "I really love her a lot". I wanted to tell you, " I love her so much". We both know, we just know. Sigh. Thanks for last night best friend. I love you so much, you know that. You're there 24/7 when all that fuck happened, when I feel that no one really cared. Thanks a lot, I guess I owe you la. And sometimes you should stfu. Lovelovelove.
Kwai; Thanks! And I got that in my head now. :)
Rena; Haha allright!

Say hello to the fucking emo, ever so sad Glynis.
Say goodbye to the fucking happy, ever so cheerful Glynis.

Now, welcome & my life has turned into fucking hell.

I won't resort to silting, no way.
Get it in your motherfucking head Glynis Tan.



010106 - 250606 :)
This time, it's really over.
X no longer go with G,
G no longer go with X.
It only happened once, in this lifetime.
<3.

10:52 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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